Guilt
Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2016 7:45 am
Just wondered if anyone else felt the same.
I'm 55 year old. Last year I was fortunate to receive a kidney transplant that changed my life. It restored my health and energy.
I work in a government funded community project. I feel the job is worthwhile and offers a very positive useful service to the local community. The problem is that like any government funded scheme it is underfunded. Work load has soared and has now reached for me unsustainable levels. If I quit it is unlightly that I will be replaced and the project will fold.
My problem is that with the transplant I have been given a gift which allows me to do the job. I could just work harder and longer hours. Loosing the project will have an adverse effect on the local community.
My guilt is based on the fact that I have been given a gift that would allow me to carry on, I just don't want to at these work levels. Am I wrong?
I don't really expect a reply to this. 10 years ago I wouldn't have felt this way. I suppose it's the way such a gift of life from the transplant has altered my outlook on life and service to others.
I'm 55 year old. Last year I was fortunate to receive a kidney transplant that changed my life. It restored my health and energy.
I work in a government funded community project. I feel the job is worthwhile and offers a very positive useful service to the local community. The problem is that like any government funded scheme it is underfunded. Work load has soared and has now reached for me unsustainable levels. If I quit it is unlightly that I will be replaced and the project will fold.
My problem is that with the transplant I have been given a gift which allows me to do the job. I could just work harder and longer hours. Loosing the project will have an adverse effect on the local community.
My guilt is based on the fact that I have been given a gift that would allow me to carry on, I just don't want to at these work levels. Am I wrong?
I don't really expect a reply to this. 10 years ago I wouldn't have felt this way. I suppose it's the way such a gift of life from the transplant has altered my outlook on life and service to others.